So I know this has been a long time coming, but I feel like the longer I wait the longer the next blog will be so I decided to get this thing going again. In .cru here we have this term we call "droppin the ball" and it means basically when you fail to follow through or you just fall short in something. It could be you fall short in your contribution to a group or just something that you weren't able to do or didn't do that effected you personally or someone else. It's basically something that we use to not only take accountability for our actions and responsibilities by owning up to them, but also it allows us to bring things to the light and experience grace and truth from others and ourselves because that's ALWAYS what we get from the Lord.

So now that that's understood let me just say that I drop the ball like it's my job. It's all good though because I have been learning a lot of things about myself and the Lord through this dropping the ball stuff. I drop the ball alot and thats one reason why my blog gets updated like once a month...hahaha. I can't even clean my room once a month so this is actually ahead of the game.

Im going through this type of organization era in my life in which I have time to use or lose basically. You see for the last 8 years I have been used to having my life organized for me because of sports and coaches. Basically all of my time is already structured for me so my job has just been to work with what little I do have and hold tightly to that because I didn't have as much time to mess around. It's actually something that I have had in prayer.

So anyway these last few weeks God has been showing me some interesting stuff. We went over how the desire to pray when we are in line with God's will is not from us at all, but from the Lord. Doug was breakin it down for us at our team meeting. So then on our way to Mission U. we were almost killed after my driver who was wreckless the entire trip and the moment she stopped being wreckless and drove like other lives were at stake-well, thats the moment the car spun off into a ditch...it was about like a 6 foot ditch in the median of the road. The funny thing though is that soon as we got on 95 I knew that this girl was wreckless so I was praying for a good hour. Finally I go to sleep and we start to descend into a ditch. So we stop spinning in circles and the car didnt flip thank God and we waited an hour and 15 minutes for AAA to come and pull us out because apparently spinning off into ditches was the evening activity for Mainers. So after that you think I think she drove faster after we stopped to meet everyone and eat. I really believe that she was tryin to make up for lost time, but im like dawg that's ok...I REALLY DONT wanna show up to mission u in a body bag b/c u were goin 60 on a curved ramp where the speed limit is 30...its 30 for a reason! This is EXACTLY why I have issues with teenage drivers....I was in accidents TWICE with them. Anyway, the 5.5 hour trip took 8 hours instead, but the Lord blessed us and we made it safely. Of course im all flustered by the time we get there and I just need to sit.

Mission U. was good though because I got to see my homey angela and share some things with her and spend time with her. It was DEF good and one of our dudes in Impact accepted Christ when this other Impact staff dude shared the gospel with him. That was tight. God really revealed to me just how through prayers He even shows His glory. Think about it. If he puts something on your heart to pray for like ummmm safe travelling mercies over and over and you for some reason decide to pray about it and you get in an accident and nothing is damaged in a bad accident because you prayed for it but He put it on your heart then what is that? That's His glory revealed. He can just DO THAT. It's worked out before it even happens. Aint that something. If someone knows that someone is coming to the conference and they want them to hear the message of Jesus Christ and pray that they will come to hav e a personal relationship with Him and just taht happens because they prayed but only because God put it on their heart....then what is that? God's glory revealed. He already KNEW it was gonna happen. It's a deep concept and its harder to type then it is to feel.

So that was that and so much other stuff has been going on that I don't know where to start. God has DEF been blessing me 4 sho and I am very very thankful for that. Well, its my time of the month and I have decided that I don't wanna finish this right now because it's gonna take wayyy tooo long, but ima update it lata...(dont hold ur breath, but I AM gonna get to it one day).

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