So I guess since this is my blog that I should update it. I guess that since this is my blog I should actually include some relevant info. Well, im dating somebody right now...aint that crazy I got a boyfriend? I met him a year ago, but didnt talk to him again until this January. LoL...its actually kinda funny.

I have a midterm to study for tomorrow so I don't have too much time to get into details but I know I have been learning a LOT this last month about the Lord, myself, and other people. It's funny because when you think of relationships you think of like oh everything is gonna be peachy, but they require work. Sometimes the work is going to be more or less than other times, but its amazing how big of a role communication plays in a relationship. When we first started talking I was blown away by this dude's honesty and his ability to keep it real. That is admirable 4 sho because it seems that not keeping it real is so much more accepted in our society. I always thought I kept it real with people until we started talking and then I realized that I could be more gracefully honest with people. Theres a big fat difference between being untactful and being honest. Everybody that is blunt does not always keep it real.

From what I know about the Godly man Im dating thus far...I can say that I feel blessed that God would think so much of me to put someone like him in my life at this time. Im not a crystal ball or God so I have no idea what the future holds, but I do know that each day is something new learned. Every day in general is just a day to learn to love other people like Christ loves us. Think about God's love...it's good because God is good and if God is good and God is love then God's love is good. Now thats wussup.

Obviously everyone has their downfalls and issues and I have been dealing with mine quite a bit these last few weeks. Satan has been on full attack tryin to knock me down with feelings of worthlessness, inadequacy, doubts, and my past---BUT amidst tha drama , some anger, some frustration, and some tears the armor of God has been protecting me. You see I play for a winning team. My God is too great to lose and being on His team I am already victorious. Now I won't front-I have issues...sometimes I front like I dont and sometimes I blow my issues way out of proportion, but I also have God. And if He is for me, who can be against me?

This new relationship has involved some tests for me and it's developing another part of me, another aspect of my character on the road to becoming a virtuous Godly woman who is mature and complete not lacking in anything. The thing that I feel most grateful for is just how through this God still shows He loves me. All I want to do is keep and make SURE God is first in this relationship and it makes you feel good to know that your partner wants the same thing too. It's all about being a servant though. How can we serve others? I don't just mean the one you're dating or your family but I mean everyone. I am learning a lot about being a servant in this relationship.

I could go on awhile about this topic and just the new things that I have learned and experienced lately, but I wont due to the priority of this blog right now (its not THAT high). Im reading this lil book called the Art of Loving God in my quiet times right now and it's so tight. A good point was brought up about loving other people...it was like when you love other people their responses don't matter. You don't love or serve them to get something in return. You just do it. Now that is deep. It might sound simple, but thats deep as I dont know what...so deep that ima go and pray on it right now because I KNOW that I don't love like that all the time with others or with God.

What a valentine's day though. You see I was on this 6 month of singleness committment to the Lord from Aug 13-Feb 13 and I let him know that this is how it has to be. I made a commitment to the Lord and im stickin with it. He respected that which was good. So on Valentine's day he told me how he felt and asked me to start dating him. I said yes. He had also had a card sent to me which was cute. (thats some girl stuff ...lol) We talked about Valentine's day and how God loves us and stuff. Then we read the Biblical definition of love and talked about how we sometimes fall short when we compare how we love others based on God's standards. It was def one of the best valentine's days I have ever had...(nah I havent had many)

For the record though, Valentine's day is DEF a girl's holiday and just another corny holiday Americans place too much emphasis on simply to get gifts. I wont front-I still like it though :o).


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